I have been thinking a lot lately. On regard to what job I will have when the future comes, on regards to my identity growing up. Growing up, I already made up my mind that I will be a doctor, a decision based more on salary really than what I really want to do. This decision developed more on unstable and impractical reasons of choice. So this past 2 months, I was further inspired by life dedicated to media and art. An this worried my parents that there dream of me becoming a doctor wasnt gonna come true. I wanted to be an advertiser, and live a lifstyle like those in Makati city. I am pretty confident it will work for me though. I mean I do have the talents for it, heck i amm creative enough. Sure, it will be tough and a pretty unstable lifestyle, but I am willing to take a risk. But now, I think I am subconciously in it for the wrong reasons (again). Maybe I want to be like the people in Tv. I recently came to the idea that maybe there wasnt really a fork road to hesitate on. I think I got driven by jealousy. I wanted to be like those "cool" people, that I forgot all the things I learned, like my purpose in life. And that pupose, I know is about being a person for others.

Come to think about it, at the end of both journeys, I know where I am really going to be happy with. And I remembered that life is really not to be lived on earth. There is a better place waiting for us. So it only came to me now, that there really was no crossroad. I was only making crossroads for my own selfish reasons, reasons of identity perhaps. But I think when coming to a big decision like this one, you have to think of the greater good, not necessarily majority of it is your own good.